my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
hrmm blogging the night before my first promo paper hurrr im like the most hardworking student in the whole wide worlddddd :D
really do not know how to respond to tomorrow except it feels rather sudden, like a slap in the face. perhaps after tomorrow i shall be motivated to study, save for the fact that *ahem* promos is less than a week away. well everything's so uncertain now, like how i really wanna do my econs s paper but then i feel like i cant really manage four subjects already what more with an additional paper that's supposedly the worst of all the s papers that are offered to the arts students. at least that's what jon says, but i do believe to each has his own so yeah I DO LOVE ECONS YOU KNOW. :(
heh im gonna drop origins of the cold war so that's one hugeee load off my back. i love ms goh!
i am going to remain placid and composed, conquer tomorrow's paper and come back smiling like an idiot :D okay perhaps not an idiot since im supposed to have pwned geepee hurr. we'll see tomorrow.
nites*
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